Fear essay

Austin
8 English
Mr. Salsich
10/28/09

Fear
One of its most powerful forms: death

(TS) Unlike most people, I am unafraid of what I can see and understand, but I am deeply afraid of the unknown. (CM) If an unexpected circumstance may occur, I get anxious and fearful that I may not be prepared for the coming event. (CM) I also become afraid that this event could cause me to do an embarrassing action. (CS) However, the most unnerving unknown for me is death, and I have seen someone come close to this unknown.

(TS) One of the most fearsome factors of my life is the unknown, and the scariest unknown to me: death. (SD) Death has no clarity, and it can occur at any point. (CM) The fact that at any given moment death can simply happen terrifies me. (CM) Imagine, while walking the path of life, I randomly arrive at death’s crossroad with no warning or notice that this is the end, because death never has a scheduled date. (SD) I hope that when I die, I will go peacefully, but I’m afraid that I won’t. (CM) Instead of growing old and dying without pain, I could die violently without time to talk to loved ones. (CM) That’s horrifying to me because If I died like that, my last thoughts may be filled with rage, revenge, or remorse that my death would be a gruesome scene for those around me. (SD) My ultimate fear dealing with death involves the aftermath. (CM) I can’t stand the thought that after I die I have no idea what is going to happen next. (CM) Even worse for me, imagining that once my life ends, it will be just complete darkness for the rest of eternity. (CS) The mysterious and uninformed arrival of death frightens me because death may not be bad or could instead be the worst event that occurs in the universe.

(TS) Not only do I have fear of death happening to me, people dying in my family frightens me; a fear that has almost become a reality. (SD) When I was nine, my brother was very sick. (CM) For a typical person, this does not cause problems, but for my brother, getting sick was fatal. (CM) My brother has severe asthma, and somehow his sickness made it a more potential way to die. (SD) Andrew, my brother, was six at the time, and he didn’t quite understand what was going on; neither did I. (CM) He didn’t know that he was close to shaking hands with death, but only recognized that his lungs were not functioning properly. (CM) I was even more uninformed than my brother because I could only tell that he was sick. (SD) However, on the night when his sickness reached its apex, I was assigned the task to inform my parents if he woke up and was gasping for air. (CM) Unfortunately, he did wake in the middle of the night gasping for air, and I immediately informed my parents. (CM) Looking back, if he had failed to wake me, my parents hadn’t rushed him to the hospital, and he had died, I would have been devastated. (CS) The Death of others is more traumatizing than my own death because the thought of losing loved ones overcomes me with an intense sadness of their absence.

(TS) The end, the darkness, the final chapter, and death are all terms to describe my greatest fear. (CM) This part of life is unexplainable. (CM) Once a person dies, they cannot come back and describe the experience because they have shutdown into an eternal slumber. (CS) The only time I will have an answer for death is at the end of my life, but until then, I fear death for its ambiguity.